爱。

I can honestly say that i'm surprised to find a number of broken heart souls here. Here in HK, to escape, to have fun, to heal. It made me feel like i wasn't the only one nobody understood.

Long late night talks over msn, long talk in the girls' room. The more we talk, the more i realise it doesn't hurt that much to talk about it anymore. And it was good to hear friends share their feelings and thoughts. Each with their own bittersweet stories to share, and many, many different perspectives to it.

Do we really need a proper closure? I guess not. Sure, i have many many unanswered questions to whatever happened. But at the end of the day, it's not going to change anything. The moment it all ended was the moment you looked me in the eye and told me something i never, ever expected. Call it shock, call it anger, call it betrayal. But the most overwhelming feeling was that of disappointment. It swallowed me whole. alive. It turned my heart cold.

I am touched at how he still tries so hard to remain friends after they're no longer together. despite her being so unreceptive. at how he wishes her only the best, that she will be happy and healthy, when she doesn't even want to have anything to do with him anymore. 那是多么真心的祝福。I don't think i'll be able to do that.

I feel sad that she is still doing so much for him, and breaking down everytime he contacts her, as a friend. To be so near yet so far. And how she got hurt, picked herself up, start loving and get hurt yet again. 心，不累吗？I don't think i'll be able to do that.

Maybe love is really just a game afterall. Just like musical chairs, we are constantly moving until the music stops. And it will eventually stop. Some end up at new places, other remain at theirs and as more chairs get removed after each round, people get left out. But then, there's always a new round. And everybody gets a chance to play all over again. Until you get tired of it, that is.

初恋，爱得很天真。爱得很深。爱得义无反顾。
虽然最后受伤的是自己，但我不后悔。如果一切从头再来，我还是会选择爱他。

亲爱的 有你牵着我的那些日子 真的好快乐
我舍不得 可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得 只是该停了